There is a false sense of expectation that if we pray for something, believe, and hold on to it tightly, it will be just like we prayed. But what if it is not? What if we do not get what we prayed for; Does that mean something is wrong with us? Are we to blame? Or have we lost favor with God? Does he not care?
I fought these thoughts recently.
Since the beginning of the pandemic, my prayer and declaration every day were- No evil will conquer me and no plague will come near my home; COVID19 would not touch my loved ones or me. Then fear came when I was facing it. I would pray and beg God not to let it happen to my husband and me.
While I was awaiting my result, which would come back positive, I prayed when suddenly something inside me asks the question- what if He does not answer my prayer? Does that change God? What He has said, does it change his character? As I sat there in the middle of these questions bombarding my mind, a bible verse from the book of Daniel came to my heart-And if not, HE IS STILL GOOD. (Daniel 3:18)
I felt that verse whisper peace in my heart. I may not get the answer to this prayer as I was expecting; God is still good. He is faithful, a promise keeper, and can use this for my good.
I know I am not alone in this. We often pray and expect God to answer each prayer just as we asked. But sometimes He will not answer that way. Sometimes the Lord will allow the challenge we are praying away to come. He will not always give us what we want. But I want you to know that does not change Him. Neither does it cancel out His truth and promise to you. We may not understand it at the moment, and question. But if you remain steadfast in the faith, He will eventually give you clarity.
See, the week before I contracted Covid19, I was praying for help in being obedient to what He was calling me to. As the week progressed, my husband and I received an invitation to the home of a friend. I later confessed to my husband that my intuition all week was telling me not to go that Saturday, Yet I chose to ignore it. That intuition was the Holy Spirit. God was not only trying to protect me but trying to help me practice my obedience. Truth be told, as I went through the process of COVID, I felt guilty. Yet, full of His grace and goodness, God allowed what I was praying away to show me He was indeed answering a prayer, to help me be obedient to what He was calling me to. Today, I thank God for His goodness because He did answer my prayers, maybe not as I expected; But today get to see that COVID didn’t conquer my home, and we’ve been able to surpass it and recover.
Please know, whatever you are praying for, if God answers it like you expect or not, HE IS STILL GOOD!!!